Rayvin

Will Boeing care?

FFS. That's exactly the sort of thing that appeals to my 'idealised self' as well. The untarnished, unblemished truth of my own inadequacy. Acceptable as long as I retain the motivation to overcome it. Thanks, this has been illuminating

That reads almost like dramatic fiction, but I get what you're saying. It's definitely a new angle to consider in all of this, I'll try to think it through. I have absolutely no concept of how I would harness such a thing though, I seem to be in a perpetual state of conflict with the thing. My fears vs my idealised self.

This makes a lot of sense although I'm wary of losing the 'shadow' as honestly, it seems absolutely fundamental to my identity. Did you have a similar issue (apologies for prying)?

I know what you're driving at here - in fact I think you and Parky are saying similar things. I'm not going to divulge huge amounts of all of this as I've already whinged on quite a bit, but for instance, I have a BA and an MBA, and spent a year living in one of the biggest cities in the world. I should be confident enough, and sure enough of myself in terms of adaptability and prowess, to be able to get a job outside of Newcastle in a fairly big city. I never imagined after all of that, that I would still be here. I love the city, but I need to test myself outside of it. It's too comfortable. I have started side businesses in the past, but lose interest even when they become reasonably successful, because to commit to them would mean taking the risk of leaving work. I'm too fucking afraid of the consequences of everything going wrong - or, I guess, of finding out that the grass is in fact not greener. Not entirely unlike Fish for the former. I use video games and the internet to escape from an ever present sense that I could be more productive, that I could be spending the time more wisely, that I could be achieving something. Then I just think, well, I'll do it tomorrow. Or soon. And I never do. So I need to be a better person. I'm not sure I could handle waking up one morning and just accepting that who I am now, is ok. It's not ok.

Interesting... can you expand on that? Why would I have cobbled together an idealised me?

It does demonstrate how vulnerable we are, though. We're an absolute non-entity of a country outside of the EU.

You'd think a brief spell in League One is as far as it would go though. A club with a 45k seater stadium in League One for more than 2 seasons at most has to be basically unheard of, surely?

True, but that's the consequence of all of this. We would just need them to sort that out reasonably quietly.

Yeah but they do care about the political project. Our departure is a political failure for the EU, as much as it's a bigger one for the UK. If we turned tail and returned, they would likely see that as a political success, and hopefully as a deterrent to other members states who might think the same way. "The UK tried it but realised it would be a disaster, so came back". It would be quite an endorsement of the project, actually.

The last time I offered a movie recommendation to someone it was well received, so I'll offer the same suggestion now - Snatch. Interpret that as the film or something else entirely, but whichever way you go it should be enjoyable.

Can't argue with that logic given what you've said.

Decent article here on the bust up between Neymar and Cavani - PSG seem to have destablised the team quite significantly: https://www.theguardian.com/football/2017/sep/27/psg-edinson-cavani-neymar-spat-lyon-bayern-munich

Fucks sake, that's a grim stat...

You not been tempted to explore it with a professional?

True but maybe they'd be different once they actually start to see it?

This is a good point actually. I noticed even on strikes that people just race through the things as if they've got something to prove. It quite puts me off playing with randoms. I'm certainly not complaining that the raid is taking so long, but I do wonder a bit about some of the people involved. The clan leader, tbf to him, hasn't had a consistent team for it at any point - which means there's always a mix of newbies and experienced players - but they must have spent about 20 hours on this now

Exactly. We just need the rest of the world to look a lot more scary than the EU to turn the Brexiters around Donald Trump could save the nation.

The EU has said we can back out of Brexit at any time, and I genuinely believe they mean that. The Tories want to extend the deadline for leaving to 2021... I think there's a chance yet. 2021 gives us the full term of Donald Trump. We may well have had a nuclear war by that point, who knows what the lay of the land will be.

Perversely, we need Trump to do more of this. It could well be that he saves us from this whole charade by demonstrating that we can't rely on the US, and that the world is becoming a less open place.

Incidentally, they still haven't managed to complete the fucking thing Think this is week 3 now?

I agree. CT perhaps had the right of this earlier - people don't care unless it affects them.

Well put.

Sounds good, yeah. I didn't get to try it - my clan were back at the raid last night and I missed the chance to be involved so I went and played something else. I'll be pushing it more next week I think, quite busy for this one.

I don't know if it's a central problem or many smaller peripheral things, I'm just determined to stop holding myself back. I know who I can be, I'm just incapable of being it at the present time. Does anyone else ever feel like this?