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Cath, I don't mind admitting I cried a bit when I read this last night, it meant such a lot. I'm not sure I can agree with your assessment with me though other than I am trying desperately now to be a better man for my family, you're right on that. But I had to hit sobriety before that kicked in. When I was on my binge nothing mattered but alcohol. It feels like a bad dream now, in fact a nightmare. So an update since I last posted. I am back at home, back at work (from home), trying to normalise/steady my life to first regain what I've lost. It's going well, although I feel mentallly exhausted after a few hours work. But slowly getting back to normal physically and mentally. I recognise I still have major problems with the latter, I am suffering prettty bad anxiety attacks and bouts of depression. It's so hard to describe, like my brain just isn't working right. Mental fog, self doubt, hard to control emotions. Was in floods of tears watching Better Call Saul last night ffs! I know this needs to be adressed quite urgently but this is where the NHS can let us down, great in a crisis but trying to get a GP appointment with someone I trust is something else. I have some BUPA coverage and may use that instead. As for alcohol, whether it's self disgust or just the drug I am taking doing its job, I have no craving for alcohol at all. I don't even think about it unless I am reflecting on my experiences of the last 2 or 3 weeks. I am as near certain as I can be that I will never touch another drop, but I am not complacent. I still recognise the potential for relapse and the enormous damage that would do. I have taken @Meenzer's advice though and am turning it into a positive. I will miss the buzz of drinking, but so what compared to everything else I gain, most importantly my sanity? It's such a small sacrifice in the scheme of things, just wish I had done it years ago (or certainly 3 weeks ago!). Once again, thank you all for your kind words. I am recoverig and will be back to normal soon enough, spamming the politics thread where I belong. There's a lot wrong with this country, to say the least.

I’ve made 3 posts and have apparently just earned an apprentice badge! Hope I can make it as a regular one day. 😄

Well that's him away then. And my family too if that's the yardstick.

I dunno, I think we still have a chance.

Let's see if Pulisic fancies joining Donnie Van De Beek for a relegation battle.

A fine thread (I'd apologise for the tonal shift but I'm not even sorry)

Tuchel wants someone to go shoplifting with.

Ubercunt.

I love how I can pop in every few months and absolutely nothing changes 😄

He's fucking Dynamite!

Okay, sorry but can't resist any longer Wrong forum

@Renton - I’m late in reading about your awful situation but a few things stand out for me. Firstly, I’m really proud of you and I know the others on here feel the same. Even in the midst of such a crisis you had the insight to know you had to ask for help and the courage to reach out for it by calling 999. There are many others that wouldn’t do that and haven’t. Secondly, amidst that crisis you were still considering how your family and friends would react to your situation and you were fearful of their reaction. The fact that they were even a consideration shows that you care so much about being the man they want you to be, and that you want to be yourself. This will be what gets you through this. After everything you’ve been through in the last few years it breaks my heart that you found yourself in such a dark place but my god, I know you’ve got what it takes to get through it. Much love and admiration to you x

Why does he look like a group of paedo hunters have just cornered him round the back of a Chinese takeaway?

he can double up as a gargoyle by sitting on top of Stamford bridge roof when he’s not playing, I suppose. Keep the pigeons away

Photo of you in hospital with the uniform on and a placard saying 'clocks go back, it's Cath' or gtfo tbh..

Pfft! He's no Laurent Robert!

Yeah but Haaland is good at football

Absolutely nailed on that that the daft knacker has pre-booked the shit hearse from a few pages ago for his own send off.

Siri, show me someone who doesn't understand the factors contributing to productivity.

We asked 100 people what difference it'll make, and our survey said...

Rents dude. As I rarely pop in general now I didn't see what you've beeb battling. Stick in there mate, you've battled hard for the last few years and you've battled hard last few days. A new sober life is ahead of you. Your wife and kids will love it. Enjoy the holiday and the love dude. You'll do it.

He's been down the Bigg Market already?

Fuck off, that's not Cath, she'd never wear blue eye shadow!

3 posts in Belta Minge gets you a Mass Debater’s badge.

Nice to meet you.

I think I’ve become desensitised given how many times I’ve used it over the past couple of years. Thanks for making me feel at home though 😁

Aye, but Gordon will be getting £20k pw and Haaland will be on £400k pw

Is it time to put the clocks back yet?

Much as it pains me to say it I think Crawley probably needs to be dropped. Just please don’t bring Burns and his hair back in his place..

Basically no competing with Man Utd. Not because they’re good but because they’ll be throwing money about like lunatics in this last couple of weeks.

Nah, you need to prove your Sunderland til you’re even more dead than everyone else. Or something

Give poor people more debt 👍🏻

He needs game time to shift the weight he's put on in the summer, the lazy prick.

FYP

Lost some weight maybe?

think that nail was hammered well truly home about a fortnight ago when we upped our bid to just above knee level of his weaker leg.

What are you hiding from the authorities?

The Athletic Football Podcast

Definitely- that bloke only has three chins and his nose is in the middle of his face.

Everybody loves them, that's why every opposition fan sings "we saw you crying on Netflix". It's not mockery, it's support. It's to let them know that they're there for them if they need to talk.

The best thing about xG is the amount of fume it creates in people.