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Using this as a blog now! Still here. They put me on the biggest drip ever last night trying to get my potassium levels up. Find out the results later. Feeling physically better but mentally worse. Seeing a mental health nurse later. Mum has agreed to put me up for 2 nights. Then will talk to the wife. Everyone in my street knows now of my alcoholism, which doesn't bother me but my wife hates it. Now begins the long road to repairing the damage I did. Through a 5 day binge. Unreal really what this drug can do to you if you can't control it.

Absolutely this. Someone very close to me went through a ton of issues recently and was down a lot for it. They always knew to call for help when they needed it most and it's what got them through in the end. Must take an incredible amount of strength, and you have it too @Renton from what I'm reading. Keep close to your family and mates, one day at a time will do it. Hope to see you keep posting on here as well. Dont frequent these areas of the board too much myself but you arent likely to see pics of grassed up bins anywhere else

Being discharged. Time to face the music. Which will be a full orchestra.

I am genuinely overwhelmed by the support you guys have given me, it has helped so much. Actually I'm not brave admitting my problem, in the end I ran out of space. If I hadn't called 999 when I did I'd be dead, I am sure of it. My potassium levels were so low after days of vomiting my heart would have stopped. At my mum's but plan to go back home tomorrow now and at least talk to my wife and maybe see the kids. Really hope I can sleep tonight, in hospital I was woken every 2 hours for another drip or BP measurement. People will say the hard part starts now, which is true, to an extent. But all things are easier if you are physically well enough to handle them. Nothing seems possible when you're not. I'll keep you guys informed but at a much reduced rate from now on. And if anyone wants advice on detox, or extreme Ibinge drinking, I'm your man. Now, I'm ready to catch up with the rest of the forum!

Show a bit of tact, Craig! (sorry )

I can't say how it'll be for you or what the timeframe will be, but I found it went hand in hand with seeing the improvements to my life from not drinking. Positive reinforcement, if you like. So it's not "I will have a non-alcoholic drink because I've persuaded myself I don't like alcohol any more" - that second part is unrealistic for most people anyway - but more "I will have a non-alcoholic drink because look at how much better a person I am when I don't let alcohol continuously fuck things up for me". That requires you to do the things you're doing now - looking ahead, wanting to fix things, being honest and open with yourself and others. Keep doing that and the rest will start falling into place over time, even if it'll undoubtedly be tough for a while, because that's how it is with all learned behaviours (let alone the ones that involve addictive substances). There'll be ups and downs, but keep talking your way through the downs (including on here) and internalising how good the ups feel so that you want to keep striving for them. For all recovery has its challenges, it can also feel like a huge weight off your shoulders, and I hope you find yourself feeling that in due course.

Echo what everyone else is saying Renton, you should be really proud of your honesty. Honesty to strangers on the internet, with family and professionals, but especially with yourself. You see there's a problem, you see the steps you need to take to address it and you see it's within your power to do it. That's very brave and that shouldn't be dismissed or downplayed. It's not the same, but I'm open about my depression and anxiety issues, if nothing else it means people don't make light of those issues around me. I guess if people know about your alcoholism they're less likely to pressure you into having one, or make light of the subject around you? It's also better understood now, and there's less of a stigma around it because of that understanding. It might seem odd, but I think your tone has changed on here since telling us, I might be wrong but I now see hope in the words you put on the screen. I see someone who sees a way out of the hole and is going to reach for it. There's a reason everyone on here is offering support and whatnot, you're a good bloke who's been through the fucking ringer and you've earned a bit of help.

"I don't believe anything these days. Nothing. Take kids, eh? Lovely little things aren't they? My son said he liked the song we had on in the car this morning, but there was something in his voice that made me think 'This kid is a fucking liar'. Still love 'em to bits the little sods! Has anyone tried the English tapas behind the bar? Three for a tenner and each meal comes with a paper napkin with the XG charts for this season's Premier League teams. Look away now, Man United fans!"

There's absolutely no shame in others knowing your situation. If anything, the more that know so that they are able to offer you support, the better. Strength in numbers and all that. Keep your spirits up mate, you're doing really well.

I'll second what Craig said, no shame in people knowing. Honesty is the only way through Keep on keeping on, and using this place as a blog is a great idea

I hope you can update us often. This is a completely safe space and you will always get my, and Im sure everyone elses, unswerving non judgemental support You are amongst friends here.

You'll be alright, Rents. You're family will probably be relieved that you'll be physically feeling better and sorting yourself out but if I may say so, you can fuck off with that guys shit.

I don't believe anything these days. Nothing. My son said he liked the song we had on in the car this morning, but there was something in his voice that made me think "This kid is a fucking liar"

Made it even tastefuller

Good God, that page is fucking honking. “ Use all did her proud…”

Remember that this is a complicated illness, not simply a weakness. Don’t be too harsh on yourself.

Save it for the Man City game?

Aye I think that ties in with him basically being a fan. He saw a bloke taking the piss and he wasn't having it.

Any time you mention 'crack' I'm reminded of how you're never happier than when you're nose deep in a soiled gusset.

I like Hope. He always speaks really well about Newcastle and he clearly gives a shit about the club. I mean who gives a fuck about player ratings.

I will echo this sentiment. Don’t be afraid to do this as a kind of personal blog. You’re going to have hard times ahead and things will get better but when times are tough let us know. Telling a bunch of (mostly) strangers on here won’t make all the difference but typing it out might even help.

I can put on Twitter that Silva definitely isn’t leaving city if that would make you feel better? It would be just as well sourced as the other shit.

Bloody hell @Renton. Just caught up with this thread. Hope you’re okay mate.

Right at the end, aye. Couldn’t have gone smoother if you’d covered it in lube

Drove my first artic wagon today. Didn’t kill anyone or crash, so that’s a good start

A virgin off

Almost as bad as when I said we should sign Eriksen in a heartbeat! Sorry...

I always look dignified when I'm stuck in the back of an old Tranny

Have you been stealing nickers from next doors washing line again? 🙄

The reg

Mrs Sponge used to work in the music video biz in the 80's and met many a pop star through work. Far and away her proudest moment was bumping into Olivia Newton John in the ladies at her office, going in the cubical and sitting on the seat, still warm from Olivia's arse

In that three minutes the only actual policy that was mentioned was taxation. The rest of the nonsense was media bullshit that the Tories have wound up. Basically it’s ‘I want to keep my money and fuck everyone else’.

Linda Carter as Wonder Woman is possibly the most breathtakingly beautiful woman ever to have drawn breath

Without wanting to lower the tone but doing so anyway.....I saw a tweet from Lynda Carter mourning ONJ where she's put a clip of them both together from a TV show they did. Honestly, man, If I could go back in time and walk into that show then Schar wouldn't be the only one with the ability to shampoo a horse with his spunk..... Both gorgeous and Olivia Newton John had such a lovely voice. RIP.

Bravado Dave is back with a bang!

Can always rely on Diego 🙂

No. Bin grassed up.

Ask a real drummer about how good Ringo was and you a very different opinion

“Yi cant park there marra, staffy’s do luvvmakkin in front of the McDonald’s sign”

PpDA is Passes per Defensive Action. In other words, how many passes does Team A allow Team B to play before tackling, pressuring, fouling or otherwise. First game of last season was at home to West Ham. We let West Ham knock the ball around 25 times before we applied pressure. First game of this season was at home to Forest. We let Forest play 6 passes on average, before applying pressure. Even when you compare Eddie's 30th game with Bruce's (Sheff Utd in 2020). We let 10 man Sheff Utd play on average 28 passes before putting them under any kind of pressure. Penultimate game of last season, against CL chasing Arsenal, it was 7. The high, relentless press is proof to me that a) Howe knows his onions, b) the players are on board and c) we're not going to go off and sign some mercenary because they're not going to work hard enough.